After years of dithering, I finally took the Tarot de St Croix off my wish list and put it in my hands.
I shouldn't have waited so long.
A thrill ran through me that I haven't felt for a deck in a VERY long time. It felt like it did when I opened the Mythical Goddess Tarot, my first deck. Now don't get me wrong, I have gorgeous decks created by very talented people and they are wonderful. But every now and then comes along that one that just moves something inside you and promises to be with you for a very long time.
I was very excited to get to know it better, and so deck interview time!
Deck Interview with the Tarot de St Croix
1. WHAT SHOULD I KNOW ABOUT YOU? Four of Wands. Normally this is a card of celebration, and honestly one I have a hard time connecting to most times. I love the guidebook's take on this card, shifting it to something that rings with more meaning to me, reminding me to reclaim and stand in power "through creating ritual and sacred space". I'm working on deepening my relationship to ritual so this comes at the perfect time. The Fours are guided by the Emperor so perhaps this deck will be a support in that aim.
2. WHAT ARE YOUR STRENGTHS? The Sun. Illuminating and re-energizing. This deck works in the light, giving clarity to the dark and shadowed places. It does not dwell in darkness... that is it may not do well when I need to confront something my shadow. It does its best communicating when I'm finally ready to move on from those spaces.
3. WHAT ARE YOUR LIMITS? Three of Swords. Almost an opposite of the Sun, it isn't one that does well in the dwelling of the shadow. Which is fine, I have other decks for that. The Tarot of the Crone, for example, is absolutely built for that work.
4. HOW WILL WE BEST COLLABORATE? Eight of Cups. Reiterating the message of moving forward and seeing a new perspective. For all its need to move on from navel-gazing, it does not shy away from emotion, instead emphasizing a need to deeply understand where they come from. Feelings are not facts, but they have meaning and must be acknowledged in order to move on to the truth.
5. TREASURE. Ace of Swords. Cutting straight through the bullshit to the heart of truth. Gotta appreciate that, even when I don't like how it feels at the moment. It is seeing things with fresh eyes and rose-colored glasses off. Truth is hard but necessary. I can rely on the messages of this deck to bring clarity and challenge me to meet my queries and their answers with honesty.
I'm looking forward to this warm and honest collaboration. The immediate connection I felt with this deck's images also re-emphasized my new approach to working decks. Everything in this deck interview reflected my connection to the practice and the decks I use in it.
After my three-month deck freeze, it's been harder to fall to the deck bingeing I used to enjoy in the past. I've been disappointed by decks that I would have been excited to work with. Which isn't a bad thing, it's just the evolution of my practice. I just had to be honest with myself about it.
I have a deck lust problem. I'm a deck collector, on a smaller scale than most, preferring to be picky and mostly collecting decks that would end up on my Tarot of the QTPOC list. I no longer feel a need to force a connection with them, instead, I am happy enough to have supported artists and publishers pushing the tarot landscape to include all of us. I also read for others, so decks I don't connect with personally are often perfect for a querent's questions and get their use that way.
I'll also continue to shed decks that I no longer vibe with, when reading for myself or others. From experience I know that what no longer works for me might be what someone else is waiting for. And I'm happy to be part of that cycle.
Then there are the decks that end up on my divination altar with regularity. These decks have never failed me, like the Mythical Goddess Tarot or the Slow Holler, and always provide the needed message. I'm committing to deepening my relationship with them even further. Like getting to know an old friend even better; there's always something more to learn, a further strengthening of the bond.